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Sunday, 23 November 2014

Contemplation



The world in pulse
in inhale and exhale gives
movement and stillness
warm and cool
dust and sorrow
joy and departure
mendicant and mendicancy
a festival for perpetuation
but eyes can gaze like caress
stillness is learned
and learning
when stilled
yields truth
and finitude eternal
they say.

[Inspired by the line drawings of Gamini Abeykoon]

Sunday, 16 November 2014

Prabuddha XXII*

A red T-shirt
un-tucked into new white pants
polished shoes
and combed hair
thus did he step out
‘on a day next week’
one evening
to meet her
filled with thought numerous
feelings are vivid
and as he reached the bus stand
a woman with a child
extended a hand
in impoverished request.

‘Who are you sister?
Whose child is this?
Leave you, did your husband?
Sought other men did you
as did Yashoda?’

Right or not right
is this journey of mine?

So he waited
and waited long
at the bus stand
oblivious to the passing hours
and arrival of night
in the indecision,
‘should I or should I not?’

And then a hand
a friendly hand on shoulder
and thus from reverie
he awoke.

It was her husband,
drunk was he.

‘Machang!
what are you doing here?
I am drunk, you see?
I am drunk
we drink, so what?
We don’t harm anyone now
do we?
The woman will scream
but scream though she will
she’s my woman
still,
right?
A good woman too!
She spoke of you
even yesterday
spoke well of you.
Come with me tonight,
you must.

A small drink
at my place.
Oh I know:
you are a good man
quite unlike any other.
Come, let’s go,
let’s go with a bottle
come, friend
let’s go home!’

Greatly perturbed was Prabuddha.


‘Samsom!
You are divine,
an intoxicated god
come to deliver me from evil! 

So he took his arm,
helped him onto a bus
with much affection,
sat him down
and told the conductor
‘Drop him off at the 6th mile post.’

I came back Niranjala
I battled as the Ascetic Siddhartha
battled Mara
for a week I fought Niranjala
for a week a daughter
of Mara
danced in my head
Niranjala.


Yes I suffered for a week this                  is true
Yes I sinned for a week this also             is true

But in the end I triumphed
I won
I won.

A sharp sword is the mind
but it cannot cut itself;
an eye that sees is the mind
but one that will not look upon itself.

A man reached out
asked for Prabuddha’s cigarette
he lit his own.

A ‘Thank you,’
did Prabuddha expect
but there was none
not even a faint smile,
stuck the fag
at the corner
of his mouth
left like a Lord.

Prabuddha was displeased.

Is it necessary to thank?
Must he offer a glance of gratitude?
“Do your duty
do not reflect
on consequence.’[i]
He remembered
and silently thanked
recipient:
‘Thank you sir!’

And he that took
was not him
but a deity
larger than himself,
Prabuddha felt.


When picking up the small change
in post-tea, post-payment moment
noticed he an extra rupee.
A new, shiny rupee!
‘Should I take it
should I give it back?’
Once again indecision.  


‘Take it man!
A toy for your son
you could with it buy.’

So he clutched tight the coins
the new shiny rupee included
and left
in a brisk walk.

He was not at peace though
for the theft
a god within had witnessed
and admonished with disappointment:

‘A lowly thief
who even a rupee would rob
that’s what you are
and what I did not think
you could become.’

When he could not flee
From admonishment and charge
returned he to the canteen
several hours later,
kept coin on counter
and explained thus
to the cashier:

‘This was a mistake
you’ve miscalculated.’

And the cashier looked back
eyes keen with suspicion:

‘He is a fool
or else a trickster.’

He turned and left
as though from a serpent fleeing
but with a mind uncluttered
calm and feeling good.

‘That’s better,’ the god then said. 

The easy path to godliness
is to think
‘I myself am a god.’
The path to enlightenment
‘A Buddha am I.’
To think thus
and live.

And then the gods of the mind
come forth when called
the gods without
come to one’s aid,
they walk unnoticed
the paths to be walked
waylay evil
move obstacle
show correct path
if lost or led astray,
as would a fellow traveler
point out error
and show direction
to a pilgrim that erred. 

Life is a pilgrimage
where pilgrims come
from all corners
but seek same destination.



*This is the twenty second part of the translation of Mahagama Sekera's classic narrative poem 'Prabuddha', an exercise that has the permission and blessings of the immediate family of Mahagama Sekera.
Parts I, II, III, IV, V, VI , VII, VIII, IX, X , XI, XII, XIII,XIV, XV, XVI, XVII, XVIII, XIX, XX and XXI can be found in www.malindapoetry.blogspot.com.




[i] Bhagavad Gita

Friday, 7 November 2014

Prabuddha XXI*


The rising moon smiles
the royal temple in sila sanctity smiles
the white sands around the bo tree smile
and I smile too.

The bo tree pleases in its loveliness
calms, subdues eye and mind.

The moon is a gilded creation
coaxing out tender leaves 
copper hued,
and when these copper leaves mature
they yield to an amazing green 
music for ears and eyes no less
when leaves sway in the mildest breeze,
a sunshade exquisite
with blue sapphires embedded
to shade and shade
the earth that is mother
that is angel. 

Pure is the dawn.

The morning star in its resplendence
marks pathway for the rising sun .

Deep in the bosom of Himalayan peaks
dressed with forest
covered by snow
shines with the young rays of the sun
just like the truth pure.

Bliss is the truth.

And under the heavenly sunshade
blessed with divine fanning
at the breaking of the dawn
focused on the morning star did I
O Enlightened One!
To comprehend that
which you had comprehended
my gaze upon the Bo tree
in a gaze-giving of gratitude
silenced the mind
by all this splendor
contemplated the wonderment
that was nature’s singular conjuring,
like a painter who is done with his painting
like a connoisseur enraptured by the aesthete
in the painting discovers self,
to hear and respond
to ‘who am I?’
with a mind escaped from thought. 

“Yassa moole nisinnova - sabbari vijayam aka,
patto sabbannutam satta - vande tam bodhipadapam”.


Seated under which
the Teacher vanquished all foes,
attained Enlightenment ,
in remembrance do I venerate.

The body is the Bo tree
mind a clear mirror
required to be frequently wiped
lest dust settles on its countenance.

There never was a Bo tree
never was a mirror
delve deep
and then there never was
anything at all;
but if this was so
where was there dust
to settle upon mirror-face?

A woman in a red batik lungi
a top made of lace
smiles, blinks her eyes twice
issues forth an invite thus.

Crowds
people jostling for better view
on either side of the street
await the Vesak procession.
Whips crack
and she whispers
‘Seeing you after ages,
why didn’t you visit?’
the drums up their tempo
raise the beat of insanity
the davul , hewisi and the thammattama  too
all at once
and in the midst of the peering crowd
a hand finds itself held by hand:
‘When will you come?’

‘Next week.’


The fire boys the fire balls turn
the veddahs garbed in leaves dance
there’s the udekki and the torches
the rising of beat for dancing feet
dance, song and somersaults
the eye cannot but in fire-light shine.

‘Whosoever casts lustful eyes upon a woman
in that moment unites with her in carnal embrace.’

‘We are leaving now,
so don’t you forget…
Cheerio!”

‘The procession passed
Emptiness regained the street.’

‘Your beauty for a long time
was in my thoughts etched,
and that I loved you
I never knew nevertheless.
I will come next week
to see you, somehow.’
Yathà'gàra§ succhanna§
            vuññhi na samativijjhati
Eva§ subhàvita§ citta§
            ràgo na samativijjhati.

Even as rain does not penetrate
a well-thatched house,
so does lust not penetrate
a well-developed mind..


‘Is it good or bad, this journey?’
And yet queries the mind
‘Is it good or bad, this journey?’



*This is the twenty first part of the translation of Mahagama Sekera's epic poem 'Prabuddha', an exercise that has the permission and blessings of the immediate family of Mahagama Sekera. 
Parts I, II, III, IV, V, VI , VII, VIII,  IX, X , XI, XII, XIII,XIV, XV, XVI, XVII,  XVIII, XIX and XX can be found in www.malindapoetry.blogspot.com.  

Thursday, 6 November 2014

The parinirvana countenance

The ultimate recline
journey-end without full stop
release into the unaccepting plains
the being and non-being intersection
known by the knowing
imagined but not grasped
caught in part
in poor empathy
but to us on the this-side
of the no-side state
reason to rejoice
reason to embrace
man and word
in meditative caress.

Inspired by the line poetry of Gamini Abeykoon

Sunday, 2 November 2014

Heroes in waiting

Uniforms are order-made
hear and obey
men and women
do and die
win and lose wars
where dead-end
is a lettered wall
for honor that will not placate
the aggrieved;
and yet unstopped
by epitaph commonality
they march, run and take aim
to do the do-n-die
for bread-winning and nation
each a story
in the sad must-do lives
in might-happen lands.
that disappear
in the rising of numbers
so inevitable
for flag-fluttering tomorrows.


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Wednesday, 29 October 2014

The Queen Returns

What were those years like
would she know,
those track-ripping times
of anger and contestation
the affirmation of history by disavowal
the claim for a plot
by planting of mine
the attempted liberation of a people
by the conferring of dismemberment?
Did she know that her roar
would be out-roared
the chug-chugging out-gunned
in multi-barrel ways
that black smoke turned blacker still?
Or did she wait
in the manner of the regal
for a time that had to come
when magazines emptied
could no longer be re-filled
in the inevitable emergency

of life after death after death after death?


Monday, 27 October 2014

When I am alone

“When I am alone I become my friend” – Sybil Wettasinghe

When I  am alone
A child comes running
along a nondescript niyara
wades across canal
holds my hand
drags me to king-coconut days
of play houses and roasted Jak seeds.

When alone
I walk from time to time
peer into eyes that have not aged
gather grandmother’s love
mother’s admonishment
and after fuss and tear their work have done
flop on chair or floor
they with their chores
and I in the circles of protective eyes.

When I am alone
I toss my passport into the Kelani Ganga
take flight from Hanwella
attend rallies and meetings
visit coffeeshop conversation
lovers and love-making
from before and after.

When I am alone
I roll like a pebble in a river
find traction in a bicycle chain
and wait for all the sunsets
I had missed. 


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